Learning the Same Lesson as My Four-Year-Old

I was taking a bath one night when Emry came in crying hysterically, “Daddy is mean!” I asked her what happened and she said, “Daddy told me to get back in bed, he’s so mean!” I told her daddy is right and that she does need to get back in bed to which she replied, “He hurt my feelings.”

Right now, everything Chase or I do is either nice or mean. If I do exactly what she wants then I get a, “You are so nice mommy.” When I say no, tell her we don’t have time, or tell her it’s time to lay down then I am mean and hurting her feelings. This has been going on for a good week and really got me thinking.

I had just picked her up from school one day when she asked if we could have a lunch date. Lunch dates are something her and I love to do together, and I told her that sounded great. She said, “You are being nice today? Not rude!” (Me saying yes= me being nice.. me saying no= me being mean..) So, we had a little talk while we drove to lunch. We discussed how I am the mommy and when I say no it is for a reason. If we don’t have time for something it is because we are about to do something else that is important. I assured her I am not trying to be rude or mean, I am just taking care of her.

As those last words were being said, I pictured myself having this conversation with God. Right there driving down the road, assuring my four- year- old I do love her and don’t want to hurt her feelings. I was assuring myself that God loves me and is looking out for me, too.

Looking at her face while hearing her feelings, I knew that’s what God sees and hears when I talk to him. Sometimes I am so frustrated with his way of doing things, that I know in the moment, I think he is being mean. My feelings are hurt and just like Emry, I want to cry and run to someone else who will comfort me.

When a prayer is answered, when I see him at work, then of course He is good. He is nice. He loves me.

But that changes quickly when life twists a way I didn’t see coming, or when I think his timing is getting closer to a never than to an “on-time.”

I really think God allowed this last week with Emry to happen so He could teach me the same lesson I am teaching her.

He knows what is ahead. He knows what I need more than I know what I need. He loves me even when I get a no, a redirection, or a continued waiting season. He sees me and hears every word.

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6 thoughts on “Learning the Same Lesson as My Four-Year-Old

  1. I love that God doesn’t give up on us and that He will use whatever or who ever to get our attention in order for us to understand the lesson that He has for us❣️

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